31st March 2010

Pay day today :) yeepee!! It sucks though, I cannot go out spending cause I am working the next 3 days...how annoying!

Just been to see 'How to train your dragon', it was actually pretty good...I know it's a childrens film but I quite enjoyed it...it was in 3D aswell and the affects were really cool!

Don't really think anything else happened today, just spent most of the day in bed sleeping. That's what most of my days consist of, sleeping, eating, purging etc. O well.

xx

28th March 2010

I feel like absolute shite today :( had a massive arguement with my parents earlier, I hate living at home and I cannot wait until I save up enough money to move out. It all seems so pointless sometimes and I wonder why I even bother with this life. I don't know anymore, things have become so complicated and the 'easy' way out seems so tempting. I know I must not go down that route but sometimes it's difficult to ignore the thoughts.

No positives :( it has been a poop day!

xx

27th March 2010

So, this is my first of blog...I hope that many more will follow.

I've had a pretty rubbish day to be honest...I am tired and my mood is quite low...it isn't helped by the fact that the clocks are going forward tonight and I've got to get up early for work tomorrow.

I went shopping earlier, bought some binge food :( poop...this sucks! I really didn't want to buy it but I just couldn't resist it...it was calling to me...sometimes I find instinct takes over, like a force drags me into the shop to buy the food and I literally can't stop myself...I only realise what I have done once I have left the shop, when my bag is slightly heavier!!

However, on a positive note, I have just spoken to a wonderful friend who always makes me smile :)

I hope tomorrow will be a better day, can't go on much longer living how I am at the moment...things have got to change soon!

xx